I have learned a lot about myself, about others, about the world and most of all what it means to ACTUALLY be family. The true definition of that word that holds so much weight. I learned about love. I learned about forgiveness and reconciliation. I learned about strength, both inner and physical. I learned about sorrow, grief and disappointment. I learned about loss, but more than that I learned so much about myself and how I thought I needed certain things and certain people to get through and survive only to find out that I don't.
I am ending 2012 in New York but at the beginning of 2013 I will be moving and I think the greatest thing about all of that is that I feel stronger, more at peace, more settled than I ever have before. Regardless of sickness, disease, hospital visits, hospital stays, regardless of those I've lost and those who have lost me, regardless of those who I turned my back on and those who turned their back on me, I feel like a stronger, more centered Vicktor. I couldn't ask for anything better than that... well, except for Shemar Moore, John Barrowman, Scott Hoying, Matt Bromer and Charlie David naked and in my bed, but you know, that's neither here nor there.
And as I do every year I have made myself a New Year's Resolution List. This is the first year when it's been this short. I guess that's something else for me to be happy about:
- Work out more than I did in 2012
- Eat healthier
- Write at least 10 books
- Travel to either Boston or Italy (try for both)
- Forgive and forget (make sure you forgive)
- Finish each semester with at least a 3.8 GPA
- Visit Angel and James. Go to Justin's grave.
- Look into adoption/surrogacy (You're turning 30-old man)
- Have a 30 Year Birthday bash
- Have at least one meeting with potential investors or consultants about Promise House
I hope you all have a FANTASTIC time tonight. Happy New Year and LIVE FROM NEW YORK IT'S SATURDAY NIGHT LIVE! (LOL. I've always wanted to say that and yes I know it's not Saturday night but still...)
-Vicktor Aleksandr B