I turned 28 today.
I feel like I'm turning 16.
Why?
Because this is the first year where I'm having a celebration as myself. As Vic. The first time since I was 15 that I'm not an afterthought or forgotten or where my birthday is having to take a backseat to someone else's celebration.
This is the first year that I feel really and truly loved and supported and it's an amazing thing.
Even in the midst of all of the hell and drama and turmoil that is currently rocking the online M/M community (which I will not discuss), I am surrounded by family. The family of my choosing. A family that knows me, supports me anyway, and encourages me to continue to live my truth.
A family where every member wrote to me ahead of time to either wish me Happy Birthday ahead of time, to ask me what I wanted for my birthday (what?! You mean you WANT to give me a present?!), to tell me how proud of me they are, how much they support me and how they want me to keep pushing forward and how they would do anything for me.
This is the first year that I'm not having to force myself or remind myself that I have to be a "girl" in order to please my family. This is the first year that I won't be calling my friends to come and take me out so I can self-medicate with alcohol over the fact that I had to force myself to be a girl all day long. This is the first year, of many years to come, where the smile on my face will be genuine and I'll be surrounded by love and affection and support.
This year is the first year, the first birthday, of the rest of my life and it is delicious.
I couldn't ask for a better family if I tried.
So to my mothers:
Stephani Hecht
Pati
NJ Nielsen
To my older brothers:
Damon Suede
Brendan (Sid)
To my older sisters:
MJ O'Shea
Piper Vaughn
Cherie Noel
Taylor Donovan
Katharina
LC Chase
Heidi Cullinan
Xara X Xanakas
To my younger brothers:
Thorny-TTBB (and his Jazz)
Matty
Brad
To the awesomest Nieceling and Nephrew ever!
To my younger sister:
Lucy/Kat
To my aunts:
Embry Carlysle
Anne Tenino
And to countless friends and supporters and my special English sweethearts:
Bryl Tyne
DC Juris
Daniel Kaine
Thomas
Ellis Carrington
Devon Rhodes
Gabrielle Evans
Joyee Flynn
TA Chase
Stormy Glenn
Ethan Day
Shae Connor
Samantha
Luci
Patty
Veronica
Perpetua
Tj
Archie
Kerstin
Aleksandr
And anyone else that I forgot:
Thank You All So Much! You are the GREATEST Family a gay boy like me could ever ask for!
Sincerely,
Vic
I'm not normal, I love being different, and it's one of the sexiest things about me...next to my creative brain and "Lil' Big Vic".
No H8
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Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
If I F-to-M Transition, Will I Grow a Prostate?
Yeah, I seriously asked my doctor that question today.
*Shrug*
It's not that I thought I could SERIOUSLY grow one...I mean, I'm not a COMPLETE airhead, but she was going on and on and ON about the wonders of modern medicine and technology and about how they could take some of my eggs and harvest them and then when I'm ready I can either have them implanted in me or in a surrogate (this conversation came about because of the fact that when you're disabled in the line of duty they always want to see if your reproductive system has been "compromised," and while I can still GET pregnant, the fact that I'm in a wheelchair, apparently isn't conducive to having men line up at the proverbial door-the military feels responsible-hmmm....I wonder why?).
"You have to understand the strides that we are making everyday to improve the quality of people's lives. I mean, it's quite remarkable."-My doctor.
"Really? So...let's say I decide that I want to be a man..."-Me
"Do you feel like you're a man? That you should have been born as a man? Because we have people on staff you can talk to and if that's something you feel you need done, we can check into options. The only thing is that you wouldn't be able to impregnate your partner."-My doctor.
"Oh that's no problem. If I was a man I'd be gay anyway. Which is what I wanted to talk to you about. Since you all are making such strides in the medical field. If I decide to do the whole female to male transition thing, will I grow a prostate? Because I hear those things are great to have. Especially you know, because I'll be gay and all."-Me
Apparently, she didn't like my questions, she told me no it wasn't possible and then she suddenly had to go. How rude! LOL.
I'm sorry I love to ask questions that flabbergast people. When I was fourteen, I asked my parents, our pastors, our deacons and my Sunday school teacher about hermaphrodites. (The parents choose the gender, but they choose what they want, what if that's not the gender that child identifies with? Shouldn't it be up to the child? And doesn't that apply to everything? Even who they have sex with?) LOL. They tried to throw scripture at the last part, but they couldn't at the first part which tore down their whole argument. I believe that pastor is still studying trying to find a response. That was thirteen years ago.
I don't try to be a pest....okay, sometimes I do, my whole goal is just to make people think before they open their mouths, especially when they're attempting to condemn someone. My doctor? Well, I just like to piss that bitch off, it's fun. Plus, her son, Jonathan, is one of the kids in the Gay Teens Support Groups that I talk to (you know about how there are straight people out there who support them and that there are alternatives and people to go to when they're being bullied, etc), his mother is EXTREMELY homophobic (blame it on her serving in the US military for YEARS and coming from an extremely Conservative household) and I think she's against "race mixing." So she rubs my craw wrong all the way around. I have to continue to annoy her, my plan is for her to be so angry at me that when her son Jon comes out in two years to her when he turns 18, she'll blame me and be angry at me and not him.
It's my plan anyway, and if I get to poke the bear and have fun a little bit along the way? Well, that's just a bonus.
*Shrug*
It's not that I thought I could SERIOUSLY grow one...I mean, I'm not a COMPLETE airhead, but she was going on and on and ON about the wonders of modern medicine and technology and about how they could take some of my eggs and harvest them and then when I'm ready I can either have them implanted in me or in a surrogate (this conversation came about because of the fact that when you're disabled in the line of duty they always want to see if your reproductive system has been "compromised," and while I can still GET pregnant, the fact that I'm in a wheelchair, apparently isn't conducive to having men line up at the proverbial door-the military feels responsible-hmmm....I wonder why?).
"You have to understand the strides that we are making everyday to improve the quality of people's lives. I mean, it's quite remarkable."-My doctor.
"Really? So...let's say I decide that I want to be a man..."-Me
"Do you feel like you're a man? That you should have been born as a man? Because we have people on staff you can talk to and if that's something you feel you need done, we can check into options. The only thing is that you wouldn't be able to impregnate your partner."-My doctor.
"Oh that's no problem. If I was a man I'd be gay anyway. Which is what I wanted to talk to you about. Since you all are making such strides in the medical field. If I decide to do the whole female to male transition thing, will I grow a prostate? Because I hear those things are great to have. Especially you know, because I'll be gay and all."-Me
Apparently, she didn't like my questions, she told me no it wasn't possible and then she suddenly had to go. How rude! LOL.
I'm sorry I love to ask questions that flabbergast people. When I was fourteen, I asked my parents, our pastors, our deacons and my Sunday school teacher about hermaphrodites. (The parents choose the gender, but they choose what they want, what if that's not the gender that child identifies with? Shouldn't it be up to the child? And doesn't that apply to everything? Even who they have sex with?) LOL. They tried to throw scripture at the last part, but they couldn't at the first part which tore down their whole argument. I believe that pastor is still studying trying to find a response. That was thirteen years ago.
I don't try to be a pest....okay, sometimes I do, my whole goal is just to make people think before they open their mouths, especially when they're attempting to condemn someone. My doctor? Well, I just like to piss that bitch off, it's fun. Plus, her son, Jonathan, is one of the kids in the Gay Teens Support Groups that I talk to (you know about how there are straight people out there who support them and that there are alternatives and people to go to when they're being bullied, etc), his mother is EXTREMELY homophobic (blame it on her serving in the US military for YEARS and coming from an extremely Conservative household) and I think she's against "race mixing." So she rubs my craw wrong all the way around. I have to continue to annoy her, my plan is for her to be so angry at me that when her son Jon comes out in two years to her when he turns 18, she'll blame me and be angry at me and not him.
It's my plan anyway, and if I get to poke the bear and have fun a little bit along the way? Well, that's just a bonus.
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