Insightful Thought

Killing someone is awful. Spreading rumors about someone is horrible. Leaving or neglecting someone is heartbreaking. But destroying someone's self worth? Inhumane and borderline unforgivable. Think before you speak! (And THERE'S your insightful thought for the day!)

Childish Cravings

Without fail at midnight I start getting weird cravings: Olive Garden soups and breadsticks...homemade cinnamon rolls....and right now?  Strawberry Toaster Strudels.

Yeah...the breakfast food item that they market for kids.

For some reason ever since they placed me in this stupid wheelchair, I've been having a desire for things I had when I was a kid: I've watched shows from the 90s, wanted to eat Cinnamon Toast Crunch straight from the box, wanted to eat Toaster Strudels, and today I had the insane urge to color.

I'd be concerned if it wasn't just another thing to make up the weirdly different DNA substance that makes me who I am.  I mean, I'm the woman who went through a whole "Spongebob Squarepants" phase.

The only thing I don't like about when times like this hit is that it effectively cuts off my writing juices.  I get like an insane writer's block because that part of my brain that takes after my genius IQ parents, the retired military officers, you know the pastor and the former pastor's wife, that is completely analytical has to figure out WHY I'm having that particular craving or desire or need.

It's the same way with every guy that I've ever dated, or hooked up with.  It's also the reason why when I watched Angel and his partner James have sex the first time I asked questions throughout.  It really goes to show their attraction for each other that they could continue having sex while I asked questions like:  "Well, why are you putting your fingers in there?  Is there a reason for it?" and "Doesn't that hurt?" and "Can you seriously come just from THAT?"

I think that's one of the reasons I have airhead moments.  My Marmie says it's because I'm SO smart book wise that I don't have any common sense, but she's my mom, she's supposed to say that.  I think it's because my extremely creative side, that part of me that writes gay romance and loves sex and loves to walk barefoot and loves to be nude, and would have been a hippie, or a gypsy is in direct conflict with the part of me that wants to own a business and a few charities and a teen group home and an organization to find, house, educate, and help homeless gay and heterosexual teens, and wants to be a philanthropist and an ambassador.

My brain just doesn't know how to react to certain things because of that.

Maybe that's why I'm craving Strawberry toaster strudels at 12 o'clock in the morning too.

My Slight Obsession With Gay Romance and Gay Relationships

So yeah, I'm obsessed.  I sit around all day either writing gay romance or reading it.  I have gay friends around the world, follow them on Twitter, on Tumblr, here on Blogger...

My family knows about my gay friends and even though they're like staunch, Conservative, Right Wing, Christian Republicans (yes, black people can be Republicans too), they don't spend their days condemning or judging gays.  They've never held those abominable signs that make people look ignorant and at most they tell my friends, one time and one time only that they don't "agree" with their "lifestyle" but that it's between them and God and they have no right to judge.

Yeah, my family's kinda awesome.

To everyone but me.

I have no idea how they can be so understanding to others, but when it comes to me actually WRITING gay romance, I become the effen "Whore of Babylon" and in need of like an exorcist or something.  I shrug it off, I mean, I'm laid up in bed, confined to a wheelchair when I do decide to get up, unable to dance and work like I used to, so what am I supposed to do?  I read the stuff all the time and of course I have an overactive imagination and I'm curious by nature and EXTREMELY sexual (hello!  I'm a Scorpio!!) so when I read these books I get ideas for other books as well.  I'm always thinking outside of the box (it's gotten me in trouble once or twice, which is why every time I've had anal sex I've also turned around and had my "turn" at the guy.  I think I'm turning a lot of them gay because I always tell them "Yeah, a guy could do this so much better than me".) and that makes for some really awesome writing.

My problem?  Even though my family is understanding and accepting of my friendships with "gays" they aren't so understanding and accepting of my reading and writing gay romance.  Why?  "It's a spirit and you're contributing to it."  Really?  Didn't realize that my reading a book or writing a book was contributing to the gay "spirit," you know especially since I'm a woman and not actually gay myself.

I don't know.  I figure I'll just keep making gay friends, keep reading and writing and let the chips fall where they may.  I mean, they already see me as a disappointment (I became an ordained pastor and tried to return my ordination papers, when they wouldn't accept it, I started performing gay ceremonies-oops, guess I was contributing there also, huh?), the bad seed, the one who's just "different."  Not that I think that that's a bad thing.  I revel in my differenciality.....yeah, that's a new word.....celebrate with me or move out of the way.

Passion's Hero meet Love's Savior

So my 5 book paranormal sci/fi homoerotic fiction books series has now become 20 books, with books 6-20 taking on the series subtitle of Love's Savior.  It is based around the children conceived from the couples in books 1-5.
I got the idea from my friend Richard.
Of course my mind has already started running wild with all sorts of ideas.  But I'm extremely excited.
I've also started another book series: Fated Duets about elves.  Also a homoerotic series.  The first book is entitled "Special."
This is probably the best outcome and result of my being confined to my bed and wheelchair.  I'm finally still long enough to write like I've always wanted to.
When the books get published and have a release date, I will let you all know.

Passion's Hero: The Beta Prince (Update)

I’m almost finished with book two of the Passion’s Hero series, “The Beta Prince.”  I’m amazed at how quickly the books are developing.  I was planning on sending book one off and THEN starting on book two, but it’s looking as if I’m going to have two books done before I get a definite response from the publishers.

Meanwhile, I did something a little nutty (I know, no surprise there).  I have created Facebook accounts for all of the main characters (the different heroes) from the Passion’s Hero series.  Talon Versuthion, Blazell Roughshire, Buckington Roughshire, Percival Taunton, Mailon Saungfreid, Duke Mufariso, Trenton Versuthion, Rico Suavez, Tuvarion Versuthion, Franklin Mufariso, and Sutton Castezi are all on Facebook.  They talk and conversate just as if they were real.

Just thought I’d let you all know, just in case you wanted to friend them ahead of time.  Once the books get covers I’ll be able to give them all profile pictures, but for now they don’t have any.

Hope everyone has been doing well this last week.  Between writing and suffering majorly from insomnia and listening to my idiot doctor who wants to schedule me for an EKG because I “MIGHT” have CHF (Congestive Heart Failure), I haven’t been able to blog like I want, but it’s not because I haven’t thought about it, I have, I just haven’t gotten around to doing it.

Also, if you all want something really good to read (you know while you’re waiting for my books to be published), may I suggest the Midnight Matings Series by Gabrielle Evans, Joyee Flynn and Stormy Glenn or The Brac Pack Series by Lynn Hagen.  I’m addicted to both series, I’m talking about buying it as soon as it’s available and downloading it the moment I can “addicted.”  Between those and EVERY single book written by Mary Calmes, T.A. Chase, J.L Langley and Stephani Hecht, I spend quite a bit of time reading (usually when I’m trying to get some sleep).

So I hope you all are doing well.  Hugs and Kisses!  And by the way The Passion’s Hero series is going to be published under the author name: VVee Bailey or just VVee.

Which do you all suggest?

Passion's Hero: The Alpha King

IT'S DONE! IT'S DONE!!!!!!
I FINALLY FINISHED BOOK ONE!
I just have to do my final edits and then I'll be sending them off in the hopes of it being published!
I've already started book two: The Beta Prince. I'm UBER excited!!!
Anyone else as excited as me?

Passion's Hero: The Alpha King (Part One)

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