Our Date Before the Date

Jack: Wut r u doin 2day?

Me: I've got to take my sister to class at like 12:50 for her 1:00 class then just chilling in the parking lot until she's done.

Jack: How about I bring u lunch?

Me: Seriously?

Jack: Yea. It can be our date b4 our date.

Me: Hell yeah!

So yes, Jack and I had a date BEFORE our big date!!  {SQUEAL!!}  We'd been texting off and on since yesterday and then he brought me Subway to my car in the parking lot of my sister's college.  We sat in the backseat and ate our subs, drank soda and talked.  He told me about his family and I told him about mine.  He said he was worried about what would happen when my parents got back and I told him about the phone call I got this morning.  I've been given until the beginning of the year to move out.  We talked about my options.  I told him that I was a semi-writer.  He asked me what that was:

Jack: What the hell is a semi-writer? (laughs)

Me: Well, I write...almost all day.  Books, short stories...gay romance you know? (he nods) But I don't know (I shrugged-I do that a LOT), I don't think I'm really all that good.  My brother and sisters say that I am though.

Jack: Wait, your biological brother and sisters or your online ones?

Me: (laughs) My online family.  They're all super supportive.  Like Thorny, he's the really adorable one, who's like married to this great guy Jazz right?  Thorny is like the reason I'm writing this stuff and making it available for other people to read......

So we talked about my online family (yeah, you guys!) and I told him about how Thorny sent me a few nice emails right when I needed them the most and how he pretty much saved my life.  I told him about Matt's unending concern and support of me.  I told him about how Lucy/Kat encouraged me to say yes when I saw him again (he now loves her).  I told him about Kate and how she's like my Australian twin sister and was the first person that I "came out" to and how she never judged me and only supported me, and how she loves my writing, even though I think hers is so much better.  I told him about Sid, who understands what I feel so much more than I would have ever expected.

I talked for a while, gushing over my online family and he just sat there watching me talk and smiling.  When I stopped abruptly, after telling him that I wanted a relationship that was a mixture of Thorny & Jazz, Matt & Brad with a healthy dose of Vee all mixed together, he laughed.

Jack: Why'd you stop talking?

Me: Why did you let me talk so much?

Jack: Because you're fascinating.  I can see why these people love you so much.  You radiate...

Me: I radiate?  What the hell does that mean?

Jack: You radiate.  There's this...I don't know...this like light that just sort of pulls people to you and then you like wrap them in this light.  I don't know what's wrong with your family...your biological family, maybe they've been around your light so long that now they're blinded to it, but I can see why your online family loves you so much.

Me: Are you a writer?

Jack: No. (laughs) I just get sort of sentimental and romantic sometimes.

Me: You're trying to make me fall in love with you aren't you? (My eyes widened and my mouth drops open.  Yep, now I've scared him off and he's going to cancel the date on Friday)

Jack: (laughs out loud) That's the plan.

We talked some more and then I kissed him.  Then he kissed me back and then we were making out in the car.  I'm talking heavy making out.  He never touched my breasts (LOL.  He told me later that he had to stop thinking that I was a GIRL and keep reminding himself that I was just ME.  Vic/Vee.  Both male and female right now.  But that inside I am a gay man.), but he kept his hands on my ass and it was DELICIOUS!  We only stopped when the campus security knocked on the window and told us to "move it along."

I haven't made out in a car since I was a freshman in college.  It was so exciting and so fucking CRAMPED!  How the hell did I used to do that?!  We laughed and separated, both of us fixing our clothes.  He had to pull up his boxers and zip up his jeans because I HAD to see if it felt as big as it looked (the answer is a hearty FUCK YEAH!) and I had to adjust my jeans and my strap on, which he named "Lil' Big Vic".  We saw my sister walking towards the car and with a final kiss, he promised to call me later and he got out of the car.

My sister stood behind the car with a look of shock on her face.  Jack had hickeys and teeth marks all over his neck, chin and shoulders (I'm a little aggressive-LOL) and his hair was messed up.  When she got in the car and I finally got into the driver's seat she sat really quietly for a second before she burst out with:

"This car smells like sex!!"

I laughed and said, "No honey, this car smells like PRE sex!"  She rolled her eyes and proceeded to text our other sister who was at work, and my mother and tell them about "the white man that Vee had in the car."

Nothing can put a damper on my happy day though.  I had a "date" before my date and it was glorious!  But most of all, I realized how truly lucky I am to have people that have accepted me, sight unseen.  Who encourage me to live my truth and then cheer me on when I do it.

Thank you all of you for everything.  For reading everything I write (Suzi, Becky, Katharina, Lucy/Kat, Luci), for putting up with my insecurities and goofiness (Kate, Lucy/Kat), for being a constant source of encouragement and support (Thorny, Matt, Sid, Lucy/Kat, Kate, Katharnia, Luci), for believing in me when I don't believe in myself (Lucy/Kat, Kate, Thorny, Katharina, Luci) and for saving my life, even when you didn't realize that you were doing it (Thorny).

I love you all!

{HUGZ, SQUEEZES AND FIST BUMPS}

Vee/Vic